nth is ours!

"I lie a lot. little lies like: no I don't even like that boy,
or no mom, I'm not blogging, I'm doing homework.
little lies that make me feel a little bad.
I have to lie about where and when and why
and whose bowl is in the drawer in my room.
it's exhausting. I wish I could let the truth spill from my lips,
pouring out like smoke when I fail at the french inhale,
spreading around, not caring what everyone thinks.
I'd like to burn my empathy and self consciousness."

And all the feelings that I thought were gone
came rushing back to me all at once.
I tried to smile && hide how I feel but then
I realized. I’m not gonna get over this one..

there will be times when you have to run away,
just to see who will run after you.
there will be times when you have to talk quieter,
just to see whose listening.
there will be times when you have to take a step back,
just to see who’s still standing by your side.
there will be times when you have to make a bad decision,
just to see whose still there when it falls through.
there will be times when you have to let go of the one you love,
just to see if they love you enough to come back.

I wish I was your favorite girl. I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world. I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile. I wish the way that I dressed was your favorite kind of style. I wish you couldn’t figure me out. But you always wanted to know what I was about. I wish you’d hold my hand when I was upset. I wish you’d never forget the look on my face when we first met.

nothing is ours

No matter who you are,

no matter what you do,

you absolutely,

positively do have the power to change.

:(

nth is ours

Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains
And I'll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins
Cuz your heart has a lack of color and we should've known
That we'd grow up sooner or later cuz we wasted all our free time alone

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself

was sixteen, met you out in Ohio
You were only fifteen, living life by the mile
We laid under the stars, fell asleep in your backyard
You said you could fly,
but you never need to
cause with us you never try too hard
And you never will

If I am a clock
Than your are the time
I'm patiently waiting
When you're out of line
And i'll be the question
If you'll be the answer

nth is ours (:<

Cause I am losing my mind when you are not around.

Cant you tell?
That you have been all over me like a spell?

If you hold me close enough,
I can whisper you the words.

Utsushi E

ただいちばん近くにいる
Tada ichiban chikaku ni iru
I just want to be loved

その人に愛されたくて
Sono hito ni aisaretakute
By the person close to me

泣きたいのに　楽しいふりするのは
Nakitai no ni tanoshii furi suru no wa
Pretending to have fun even though I want to cry

案外簡単なことだね
Angai kantan na koto da ne
Is surprisingly easy

悲しいのは慣れてないから
Kanashii no wa naretenai kara
I didn’t want to get sad

大切なことを見ないようにしてた
Taisetsu na koto wo minai youni shiteta
So I tried not to see the important things

誰もかも　何もかも　失っても
Dare mo kamo nani mo kamo ushinatte mo
Even though I lose everyone and everything

君がいてくれたなら　それだけで良かったのに
kimi ga ite kureta nara sore dake de yokatta no ni
If only you were with me, that would be enough

この世界で　どうしていちばん愛しいものだけ
Kono sekai de doushite ichiban itoshii mono dake
Why is it in this world only the most beloved things

どうして手のひらを　こぼれ落ちてゆくんだろう
Doushite te no hira wo kobore ochite yuku n darou
Why is it things keep falling out of the palm of my hand

素直な気持ちを話せない
Sunao na kimochi wo hanasenai
I won’t tell you my real feelings

不器用な誰かのために
Bukiyou na dare ka no tame ni
Because it’s embarrasing

涙や　体温や　笑顔は
Namida ya taion ya egao wa kitto kono you ni
Tears, temperature and smiles

きっとこの世にあるのかもしれない
Aru no kamoshirenai
might actually exist in this world

岸辺から見えた君は
Kishibe kara mieta kimi wa
From the shore I saw you

うつし絵みたいに似ていたんだよね
Utushi e mitai ni mite ita n da yo ne
and it looked just like a beautiful painting

誰ひとり　何ひとつ　残らなくても
Dare hitori nani hitotsu nokoranakute mo
Even though no one and nothing was left

君がいてくれたから　それだけで安心だった
kimi ga ite kurete kara sore dake de anshin datta
Because you were here I felt relieved

この世界で　それなのにちゃんと伝えられなくて
Kono sekai de sore nano ni chanto tsutaeranakute
Even though I didn’t tell you

それなのにずっと　一緒だと思っていたの
sore nano ni zutto issho da to omotte ita no
I thought we would always be together in this world

明日と昨日　順番がかわり
Ashita to kinou junban ga kawari
If the order of tomorrow and today were changed

もしも今日の次が昨日なら
moshimo kyou no tsugi ga kinou nara
If tomorrow became yesterday

君にもういちど　会えるかな
kimi ni mou ichido aeru kana
Would I be able to meet you again

教えて　私が探したものを
Oshiete watashi ga sakushita mono wo
Tell me, what I looked for

君が探したものを
Kimi ga sakushita mono wo
And what you looked for

二人が見つけた何かを
Futari ga mitsuketa nani ka wo
If we found that, what could’ve been

果てしない　広がるこの海のように
Hateshinai hirogaru kono umi no you ni
Like this endless sea

すべて受け容れたなら　許し合えるはずなのに
Subete uke ireta nara yurushi aeru hazu na no ni
If we put our everything into it, would we be able to be together

この世界で　自分が思うより深く愛されて
Kono sekai de jibun ga omou yori fukaku aisarete
In this world, if I was deeply loved by you

自分が思うより　一人きりじゃないんだね
Jibun ga omou yori hitorikiri jya nai n da ne
I wouldn’t be feeling so lonely